Question: Masters, I am having a hard time discerning my soul journey. I was offered a job to teach in Boston for 6 months and while it sounds great, there’s a part of me unwilling to commit. I can’t tell if it’s my fear of commitment (something everyone says I have) that makes me not want to stay in Boston for that long or if I’m tuning into my own truth. ~Catherine, USA
ANSWER: Your life journey is the path you are traversing at any given moment. It can vary from day to day depending on what you need to experience. Stop trying to over-think what particular lessons you set up for yourself. Just deal with them as they appear.
You have chosen a series of lessons that deal with everyday life and accomplishing something you have started and for the completion of which you have taken full responsibility. You fear that which you do not understand or know. You will not easily enter into anything unless the outcome is pre-determined. This is the result of a lack of confidence in your own feelings about things.
You listen to others because it is easier to follow their opinions than to assume responsibility and make the decisions yourself. You go back and forth, and that is why you have the reputation of not being able to make a commitment.
Your lack of decisiveness is nothing but fear. Face those fears. Ask what is behind them, and get rid of it. Mostly you will find a lack of self-confidence hiding in the background. Let yourself recount everything you have successfully completed, and know that, if you put effort in to it, you can do anything.
You need to start trying new adventures to learn more about your own abilities. Should you go to Boston? That is for you to decide with your freedom of choice. But stop selling yourself short just because you haven’t tried something before.