QUESTION: On a spiritual retreat I felt myself drawn to someone who is the complete opposite of anyone I have ever been attracted to. I cannot get this person off my mind. I have been in a long loving relationship with one of my true soul-mates. As with all relationships, it is not without its challenges. At times I feel like giving up. While nothing happened between me and the other person, I feel cut-off from my partner whenever I even think of him. It is frustrating because I have always been extremely committed and faithful, and feel I am betraying my partner. I am struggling to understand the reason behind this sudden meeting and what lies behind my strange, intense feelings. I think there is no path for us together romantically and he is also in love with someone else. What was our plan? Why? Is this a sign for me to relook at my existing relationship? Was I meant to help him in some way or vice versa? Am I imagining all of this? ~Sarah
ANSWER: When in the presence of pure elevated energy, like that at a spiritual retreat, you frequently see through the covering of the physical disguise each human wears, and go through to the essence of the soul beneath. Since all souls are composed of Source energy, and were broken off from Source, you sense unconditional love at its most intense. When you are attracted to someone thus revealed, you are attracted not to their personality but to their soul.
Your relationship with your husband is a typical life marriage in which you can learn tons of lessons about personal interactions and physical love. You and he have done extremely well in assisting each other through this life. The times of greatest difficulty have been when one pointed out something the other wished to deny. Your retreat occurrence is a point of reference for you between your core essence and your physical one. It is not between this other guy and your husband.
This is a lesson in clarity. Just what is happening here? How do you feel about this situation? You have adequately analyzed the parties and what can and cannot be. Yet you continue to look for something else instead of going with the feelings you have. Open to your intuition and follow it. What you can’t get off your mind is the sensation of his core unconditional love—but then your husband has that as well.
Work on finding and bringing that love to the surface. Gathering research information of what can be is not betraying, cheating, or disrespecting your husband, unless you think it is. Part of your feelings arise because you have not tried very hard lately to reach the essence of your husband. Throw the guilt away and start a renewed honeymoon.