QUESTION: Masters, I am 39 years old. My brother, who is 4 years elder to me has been rejecting me since my birth. When I was 4 years, my father had his first attack of depression and then because of that there had been financial issues in the child hood. Since my marriage, my in laws have been non loving towards me and my husband, whom I married for love, has not been valuing me and cash in hand has been an issue, inspire and despite of trying everything, things are not showing much improvements. I want to know my life purpose and till when will all this last? ~Menu, India
ANSWER: Your life’s purpose is to get to know your unconditionally loving soul. You are completely limiting your awareness to the physical energy of those around you. You don’t love yourself enough to accept that this journey you are on is a solo path of enlightenment. You judge how your life has been by comparing the experiences of the rest of your family members. You are a rose among the thorns, letting the thorns rule your thoughts and hide your beauty and happiness.
You chose your parents before coming into this incarnation, knowing of the difficulties your father would have so that you might observe and learn from him and not have to experience the depression yourself. You knew your brother would be jealous of you and therefore reject you, so that you would be forced to find love within yourself. You have not found that love.
It is not imperative that your parents, your siblings, or your in-laws love you – only that you love yourself. You have a need to be needed, which you interpret as love, so people’s not liking you makes you feel unworthy, insignificant, and the cause of their disdain. Needing is not loving; it is just setting the stage for the other person to use you.
It doesn’t matter what others think of you. It is a life lesson to learn that all souls are on their own journey, making their own decisions with no regard to how they affect others. See you and your husband as a couple without attaching to the rest of the family. Take your positive energy and bring to yourselves the wealth, health, and happiness that you can envision as yours. Have faith in your own abilities to create, not what your family history has shown as dysfunctional.